Thursday, June 21, 2007

New Shoes

Lately I've been thinking a lot about self-improvement, probably because I've been told that there are certain character traits I should work on. I was told that I should pay more attention to details and think things through more. Since then I've been trying to notice when I make the mistake of making a careless decision or when I'm not being observant enough; I've come to find that it is extremely difficult to make changes to traits that are so deeply engrained in my character and habits. I'm still very much intent upon improving these flaws, but I've been thinking a lot about their origin and how it is that I became so comfortable with making the same kinds of mistakes repeatedly; I think that because my childhood was so restricted and sheltered and decisions were typically made for me throughout most of it, I never fully learned how to make proper decisions--so now I make them hastily. All actions have consequences, however, and so I've recently been learning from the effects of my past slipshod decisions. I'm slowly learning how to think things through. The clumsiness will take a while, but I'm tryin'.